Sunday, April 4, 2010

my beautiful mess

"It was good for me to be afflicted so that I might learn your decrees."
psalm 119:71

The above verse was written for me. It was good for me to have cancer so I might learn more about God, to deepen my relationship with Him. If cancer is what it takes for me to learn all I have and will, then I wouldn't give cancer back if I could. I do not think cancer itself is good. In fact, I hate it. But I love the changes it brought to my life. It has been a long, hard road getting to this point, and I'm sure I'll have a different sentiment another day, but today I love how God has used my cancer for good.  I do not believe God gave me cancer, but I absolutely believe He can turn something as ugly as cancer into something beautiful. He can and He has.

1 comment:

Courtney Walsh said...

I just found your blog and I understand this completely. I tried to explain this same sentiment to my mom yesterday. While I don't have cancer, I do have an autoimmune issue that has been killing my thyroid and through all of it...all the confusion and stress and annoyance, I have grown closer to God. Isn't it amazing how that happens?

I'm off to read more of your blog, but I'll be praying for you today. :) Just wanted you to know.